I Passed! I Passed!!
If that was the only thing i was hoping for..i would've been lying. Yes, it's true, as i predicted..i didn't get 65+. :'( i feel like crying. No, that's not right - i AM crying. I didn't quite make it.
Nearly there, but not quite there yet. It's always, ALWAYS like that for me. Just like last yr.
I want to know what i am doing wrong, how come i can't reach my goal?
I go to the lectures, i listen, i make extra notes, i go to the tutes, i do questions. I don't/hardly wag, I have a heart that wants to learn....but i still fail to get there.
All my friends got there, even the ones who get lazy, hardly do the work, copy...etc
It hurts to know that. It really does.
I failed to get a job. I failed to get 65+. I suddenly...feel like a failure. The future looks dark again.
I might not even get the scholarship because i got an average lower than 65, no matter how much i try my best, beg, do well in the interview.
I always feel that if you have "heart", you will eventually succeed.
But maybe that is not true. No one is there to help me. :'(
Please let me able to recover, please let me be able to be accepted in the scholarship program, please let me find a job, please give me a brighter future.
Maybe i am not so good at studying, but i am persistent, hard-working and never give up.
My tears can't help but fall.
