Exam Week 2

Back to the drawing board - job seeking. I think i had a pretty good week, until i got a call that i was "unsuccessful" for the job. Maybe because i had high hopes, maybe cause i really wanted to get it. Maybe cause after searching for half a yr...you found sth which you might have a chance. It really tears down your mood...but what can u do? Keep searching i guess....i don't want to give up...and i won't!!

Also had an exam this week..comp programming...and what can i say, at least i attempted everything?
Family has been having health issues lately...dad...mum....me...last week for my birthday, i wished every1 can be healthy, i hope we can be blessed and everyone stays healthy. I didn't realise how important people around you are and what it will be like without them gone.

It's funny...why am i feeling like this after hearing that i didn't get the job...? My head keeps thinking "i will get a call back.....saying they got it wrong.....that i have got the job" but it's all in my head....i waited 2 weeks for the call....and i got it. Satisfied? I don't know.
When i didn't have it, i thought to myself...am i really suited for this job? When i don't have it - part of me really really wants it, maybe it's cause we went through so much nowww and my interest has increased for coffee and for gloria jeans. I want to find a casual job before it is too late....but the question is - WHERE?
It's so hard to find...and when u find...it's so hard to get....i feel far.....

2 exams left....i cannot stress how much "fighting" i really need right now. Some ppl have jobs come to them...while some ppl have to go seek for it...and maybe never find.